Memories

Memories. good or bad one. It has the power to deceive one to believe that memories can be repeated. It can lure a person's thoughts of wanting to go back to that particular moment. But the truth is, it's just an illusion. A stupid illusion where if its a good memory , you're remember that happy moments. If its a bad one, you're remember the darkness within it.Over time, the weaker memory will slowly fade away and be replaced by a stronger one - but the strong one remains. The question is when you miss that memory, do you miss the person or just merely the memory? that particular memory.Often times people just missed the memory and not the person. People change over time. So it's not possible to relive that memory because people change, and things will never be the same. So we just simply want to collect memories to comfort ourselves. But the truth is, no one will be there for you, it's just a stupid idiotic illusion that deceives your state of mind. Your emotions. So the only thing you can do , is to suck it up and treat it as a past because your memories will eventually be deleted , even literally. So stop living your past by holding to memories and live in the present because one day , just one day , it will be gone.

You're my whimsical reverie

Ever felt like you don't know what to write even when there is tons of thoughts overflowing your mind?

xoxo,

just love those shoes so much :)

To a better me

This year , I will be 20 years old.
2 years ago , I was having a thrill in national service .
3 years ago , I was anti-social.
10 years ago , people think I have down syndrome.
14 years ago , I was quiet .

okay. why do I like emo songs?
I guess it's because all this while , I think they truly understand what I felt.
Every tune, every melody and every vibe has became a huge part of my life, inevitably .

S.J.K (C) Sungai Way

It's strange how all of my memory of sungai way can be completely varnish me.
That school gave me nothing but anger and grieve. Transferring to another school was the happiest day of my life. It's pure evil and hell there. When I was bullied, not a single soul would help me. How pathetic and cruel are you people. I cried everyday.The teacher sucks too. I'm sorry but there is just too much hatred.I never expect to see them again. I despises them. You may think I'm that retarded girl who is very quiet and got bullied by a bastard everyday after school while waiting for the bus, I'm sorry but seems like you only reflect yourself when you're talking bad about others.

The truth is, I never wanted to see any of you. Nor would I see the school and having a hard time to refresh my memory because it's just too painful for me to do so.

so fuck off.

ps// Improving your school facility doesn't make you any better. You're just pretending.

Heart don't fail me now.

It's currently 1.48 am.midnight.alone.talking to my blog.pathetic.

With just a booze of music and silence of my Facebook.I'm gone down to my emo mood now.

Facebook.Pathetic.

Content. Sleepy. But don't feel like sleeping.

Am I that pathetic.

Am I a fool once before, ever again?

I worship those who can understand this post

For once, I also don't get my words.

Confused.Quiet.

Oh , the silence overpowers everything.

Half a year has past by,

yet releasing my emotions here.

desperate of finding answers.

Answers that I must create .

Feeling not worthy for a easy path and have no enthusiasm.

Feeling pity for those who deserve this privilege.

The silence has now made me realize something.

Maybe I'm just over thinking.

Maybe I just need more answers.

Maybe I just need to sleep.

I should be happy. no?

No matter how hard I try,I turned back,glance,and walk away step by step,taking every breath that I can.
Unsure of my destination,while grabbing every chance I can during the journey.
Before proceeding to the next path, look back and realize that I'm not the same anymore.

Will I ever stand a chance to recover? 
It just feels like it has been like forever .