I'm sorry, I can't be perfect

People say I'm just being ungrateful, unappreciative,but do they feel and understood the pain that lies between my soul?

Have you ever need to put seal a coat onto you before you go to sleep ? and having to wake up feeling cranky by just staring yourself at the mirror of your washroom. Having yourself trying to resist what you may do that will cause a snowstorm that will eventually fallen into spring? Having that uptight feeling of yourself that the snow will eventually become a melted snow patch? Having everything that you ever wanted and have that one little issue terrorized your happiness.

Do you really want to compare who is more miserable? seriously? You have no idea how it is like to be me.

embarrassment .

Hola non-existing readers :)

my life is just getting more and more boring each day a day pass.

Me? I've not been reading as I used to already.I don't even bother buying my dearly beloved Seventeen magazine already.

At this point of my life, I just feel like throwing myself off a cliff and never have to face the world again.Okay,maybe not now.not today.

As tears are still running through my eyes,the melody of the cartoon spongebob squarepants violin signature sad song is being played in my mind.But still, nothing compares to the lovely graceful melody of Bach Air On G String.

That one sentence that will instantly haunt me for the rest of my life-If I live anyway.

That one word.

....why do I feel like my life is ending.

This torment of emotions is just hard to bare.

I need no one to talk to me in this matter.

I'm aint a kid anymore.

I've dealt with stuffs.

But sometimes, it's nice to have someone there to lend you a shoulder.

Now,I just wanna be alone.

right here,right now , right at this very isolated place of mine.

On the Contrary,darkness is just stalking me.

I don't see any warm humid air.

All I see is the strong beam of agony.

After relentlessly going through 3 period of classes -___-,I feel sighed.

Yes,I'm a huge embarrassment.

Xoxo

thanks for the inspiration

Scared and screwed

I'm basically the 2S now. what's the 2S stands for ?

• scared
• screwed

I'm screwed because I'm so scared of making a decision might change my life forever.

I'm scared because I'm so screwed that I myself also don't even know what I want in my life.

I wish I have someone to give me good advice .

where are you when I needed you ? you were never there.

Meeting you was never a mistake nor I sometimes kinda regretted it. Somehow, you've washed away all the tears and pain that were in my heart.Though you showed me how wonderful can life be and never fail to make me smile ,I'll always knew that you will stood me up in the end.Is it worth it to let go of someone just for the sake of their happiness? why can't we be happy too? In order to let another person happy, we must just stand by and suffer? I guessed that's just part of life rite.let's just accept facts.

So far, everyone isn't giving me any good advice. How.

Went to The Gardens/Garden (not sure )

That restaurant is giving serious 10% discount to alot alot alot , I meant alot of people .

1. Vior membership card holder
2. Maybank card holder and don't know what bank also got
3. Sunway Uni student

somehow, I find this very funny.

because I'm 3 of the above. okayyyyy :O

All I can say is that the interior is freaking nice. It reminds me of a person's house. The white piano is so charming.Most of the furniture and deco in there are either green or white O.O

There's a fountain outside the balcony too.

And what I can say is that I'm super impressed with the hospitality they offer :D I mean, hey, I've been to alot of this kind of restaurant but I never thought that a waiter would actually pulled and gently pushed the chair as I sat down .Such a gentlemen perhaps?I dk . I'm not sure either. There's no doubt that his smile is kinda cute too :D , I don't know it's because of the lighting or what.Anyway, I'll always remember his fine recommendation -Honey Lemon Tea.

Mom's
Mine.I should totally ordered the Cabonara instead

So overall, the food was decent.

conclusion: Love the ambiance, Love the service-the waiter =X

When it's time to go, the waiter was standing at the entrance. As my father walks by him, he just smiled at my father, and after that , he suddenly puts his hands 180 degree ,smiling and waved goodbye to me. how charming can a waiter be?

Random pics;

Me : OMG OMG? They got sell here one ah?? omg

As simple as that

I want to go ice-skating. so badly =(

My Superhuman

Hey, I know that you're still reading this.

I just want to let you know that I'm truly terribly so sorry for everything that came between us .

though I know we're still not going to talk to each other, please take care , will ya?

Retirement day

It's official! (no, I'm not 18 yet)

I quited my jobbbbbb :D:

now I'm trying to figure out what to do in the next 1 month ohgosh.

maybe I should consult the rott queen @Brenda hahaha.

One thing for sure is I'm not gonna watch my camp disk. saving it for a very emotional moment. =D

er and no, I was not fired; this is what happened this morning .

*phone rings*

Me: yes?

boss: My supervisor told me that you wanna work till May only, is that true?

Me * thinking, okay.... not really true but since I planning to work till 2nd week of june, why not just leave now. makes no difference.* so i said yes

boss:okay =)

me: thanks =)

I miss my vendor neighbors already =( I didn't get the chance to say goodbye =( =( omg sounds so dramatic . I still can see them riteeee...

ps/ I LOVE FRIDAYS! It's friday ...friday....gotta gotta get get down on a FRIDAY <3 RAWR

OMGGGG what to do for the next 30 days @@!!!

I think I'm slimming down already! wohooooo. wah. my hair is like damn frizzy

okay I wanna type more , seems like there's just nothing much going on my life. so boring

And guess what.. wait for it.. wait for itttt

OMGGGGGGOSHHHH

I finally get to touch/feel/eat/smell/taste mouth-watering macaroons XDDDDDDD

It's something that I think everyone should try it before they die hahaha.

And now, I can rest in peace already haha jk

For you people out there who simply just want cheap or should I say just for the sake to taste it - macaroons, you can get it in Berry's Bakery .

what else to write hmmmm...

I guessed I just cut the chat and continue on with my pathetic love novels ;) *ignore DOWKid

Till then,

xoxo

I believe I can fly.

My Day off (like , finally)

after so much of negotiation and black-mailing, i was finally granted one day off! Hurayyy!!

Went Amali with Chicken Mun Mun aka Timun

At first it was so freaking damn boring that I almost fainted. Luckily I brought a friend along if not I don't know how I can open my eyes...it really bores me to death. especially with all those mechanical stuff..let's just say I'm not good in it, every parts looks the same to me and i'm gonna die when my car tayar pancik or when i stuck in the middle of nowhere *scary* Bottom line, I hate mechanical stuff LOL.

It was kinda funny, we were taking turn leaning on each other's shoulder..

Then, we start to camwhore.

yes, so shock.

but then apparently, my face became soooo sooo plum since ns that I rejected most of the pics we took *amen*

After that ,

went snowflake,ss15 with mun yee,brandon,cicak and sok xok

Anonymous : Yo! wanna go yamcha with us on sunday?

Brandon: You are?

Anonymous: Your admirer..

Brandon: huh? oh sry I have a date with **** this sunday =D are you sure you're not mun yee?

Anonymous: huh? who is mun yee? and who is **** I demand to know!! (LMAO)

ps/ we waited for sok xok to come out until I almost killed him (again)

After yam cha, was super tired already.

tired+sore throat= dizzy

I asked cicak to dropped me to Subang Parade to meet up with my family.

It's been so long since I eye the ambiance of Subang Parade.

And they was having this 'Shop for your school 'thingy again.

I don't know what to say about my school =(

After that, we filled our stomachs with alot, i meant alot. of fish

napkins can be soooo cute :D

Monday we dined out and ate this expensive looking fish

that was a half stirred fried and half steam groupa.

okay. reasons why this fish can be intimidating is cause my father is still abit traumatized from the Sekinchan Ikan Bakar that costs my father rm60++ for just one fish...

So we were puzzling how much this fish will cost him.

Me: Papa, you uncover the digit already ah?

Father: haven't but I have a bad feeling that this may be rm50+ , what you think?

Me: maybe rm50-60

sis: rm40

bro: rm52!

mom: rm 40?

*bill amount uncover already*

the price is rm42

Me: wah . anthony got the 2nd number correct! so geng ;O

Till then,

xoxo