All you need is just faith

I suddenly have a wake up call.

No, not because of anyone died of something. It is simply because of this extremely moving yet saddening movie I've just watched recently. To my surprise, The Vow depicts the sad truth of life,society and relations.

I can't be sure of my interpretation, but I'd know one thing for sure.

I realize that I must stop punishing myself, waking up to each day thinking about all my problems to such extend of mental agony .

I realize that the world is so beautiful.

I need to take a leap of faith cause not everything will always be the same as they used to .

I need to stop worrying.

I must forgive myself for everything.

I should appreciate what I have now before it become a memory .

I will try to be happy :)

I seriously gotta step out of this pathetic phase of mine . I was not like this. I used to be strong. I think I can get back to the old me. And I seriously don't know since when I become like this.

Looking at the old blog of mine, I wasn't like this.

But this time, I'm determined to be a brighter Angela and will not hide in a toilet cubicle anymore.

I can't make promises, but I will try . I really will.

The theory of impact ;

people need of time off with each other to rediscover themselves all over again.At the end, it is up to the person whether he or she wants to continue the life they have now or move on.

Love,

A

Communication

Sometimes, I just need someone to talk to me.

I'd feel happy just by talking.

I like talking.

Even tough when I feel like the whole world is trembling down, at least I have someone to talk to.

It's just a comfort to me.

You don't need to comfort , buy me unnecessary stuffs or anything.

But sometimes , all I need is to just run away from people around me.

When you're alone, you tend see things clearer.

But at the end of the day , it all just ends with talking .

Sincerely,

Angela.

Scared and screwed

I'm basically the 2S now. what's the 2S stands for ?

• scared
• screwed

I'm screwed because I'm so scared of making a decision might change my life forever.

I'm scared because I'm so screwed that I myself also don't even know what I want in my life.

I wish I have someone to give me good advice .

where are you when I needed you ? you were never there.

Meeting you was never a mistake nor I sometimes kinda regretted it. Somehow, you've washed away all the tears and pain that were in my heart.Though you showed me how wonderful can life be and never fail to make me smile ,I'll always knew that you will stood me up in the end.Is it worth it to let go of someone just for the sake of their happiness? why can't we be happy too? In order to let another person happy, we must just stand by and suffer? I guessed that's just part of life rite.let's just accept facts.

So far, everyone isn't giving me any good advice. How.

Went to The Gardens/Garden (not sure )

That restaurant is giving serious 10% discount to alot alot alot , I meant alot of people .

1. Vior membership card holder
2. Maybank card holder and don't know what bank also got
3. Sunway Uni student

somehow, I find this very funny.

because I'm 3 of the above. okayyyyy :O

All I can say is that the interior is freaking nice. It reminds me of a person's house. The white piano is so charming.Most of the furniture and deco in there are either green or white O.O

There's a fountain outside the balcony too.

And what I can say is that I'm super impressed with the hospitality they offer :D I mean, hey, I've been to alot of this kind of restaurant but I never thought that a waiter would actually pulled and gently pushed the chair as I sat down .Such a gentlemen perhaps?I dk . I'm not sure either. There's no doubt that his smile is kinda cute too :D , I don't know it's because of the lighting or what.Anyway, I'll always remember his fine recommendation -Honey Lemon Tea.

Mom's
Mine.I should totally ordered the Cabonara instead

So overall, the food was decent.

conclusion: Love the ambiance, Love the service-the waiter =X

When it's time to go, the waiter was standing at the entrance. As my father walks by him, he just smiled at my father, and after that , he suddenly puts his hands 180 degree ,smiling and waved goodbye to me. how charming can a waiter be?

Random pics;

Me : OMG OMG? They got sell here one ah?? omg

Retirement day

It's official! (no, I'm not 18 yet)

I quited my jobbbbbb :D:

now I'm trying to figure out what to do in the next 1 month ohgosh.

maybe I should consult the rott queen @Brenda hahaha.

One thing for sure is I'm not gonna watch my camp disk. saving it for a very emotional moment. =D

er and no, I was not fired; this is what happened this morning .

*phone rings*

Me: yes?

boss: My supervisor told me that you wanna work till May only, is that true?

Me * thinking, okay.... not really true but since I planning to work till 2nd week of june, why not just leave now. makes no difference.* so i said yes

boss:okay =)

me: thanks =)

I miss my vendor neighbors already =( I didn't get the chance to say goodbye =( =( omg sounds so dramatic . I still can see them riteeee...

ps/ I LOVE FRIDAYS! It's friday ...friday....gotta gotta get get down on a FRIDAY <3 RAWR

OMGGGG what to do for the next 30 days @@!!!

I think I'm slimming down already! wohooooo. wah. my hair is like damn frizzy

okay I wanna type more , seems like there's just nothing much going on my life. so boring

And guess what.. wait for it.. wait for itttt

OMGGGGGGOSHHHH

I finally get to touch/feel/eat/smell/taste mouth-watering macaroons XDDDDDDD

It's something that I think everyone should try it before they die hahaha.

And now, I can rest in peace already haha jk

For you people out there who simply just want cheap or should I say just for the sake to taste it - macaroons, you can get it in Berry's Bakery .

what else to write hmmmm...

I guessed I just cut the chat and continue on with my pathetic love novels ;) *ignore DOWKid

Till then,

xoxo

Little things that matter

Oh wells,been really lazy to update my partially dead blog.Thats because I was too busy on the weekends. I hate fridays,I really do. Cause my nightmare begins on F R I D A Y and ends on Sunday (which I currently love)of every week . I think it's going to be the total opposite when my class starts ;O

and when it's monday, i'll be too busy dominating the tv or having a korean drama marathon which i missed a lot due to hardcore spm studying last year.

I really am excited and totally looking forward for my class! So exciting ! (I know this sounds weird but I'm exhausted from work and to the point that I'm sick and I feel so un-educated since it's been 6 months didn't study at all ..I cannot deny the fact that I actually love studying.*cough*. Hmmm.)

okay. so let's see. today is 1st of June already. I still don't know how to celebrate my sister's birthday (I want eat nice food =X,screw my diet) now that I'm still working. haih

Let's talk about what happened in May.

My first day of work throughout my whole entire life,seriously. yah. I don't care if you call me a princess..baby, I was born this way hahahaa =.=

errr..1st day was kinda excited+scary+sad+terrifying

facts;

• I tore the silicone glue D: (pic above)
• I screwed up with customer's order (she was not angry)
• sales was depressing as ever

and this happens when I'm too used to pressing calculator.

conclusion is art requires patience , you know ;)

somewhere in May;

had dinner with sis's godparents and parents friends from New Zealand

that was certainly so not a normal dinner;

• It so happen that the purpose of that dinner was about migration to NZ
• The Sri Lanka crab was damn awesome (pic above) I loveee crab.

I would like to made a special announcement here and no,I'm not getting marry (LOL)

I would like to make a special thanks to those..ya ,you.. who came and dropped by to give support and love (lol) on my first week , even first day also alot people. I love you girls/guys ! <3 so touched T.T (lagi lol)

And then, chia ling came and dropped by .

It seems that she forget her e-mail address.

(people forget password, she forget e-mail address. It's hard not to laugh XD)

my feng shui customer. I have some weird customer. expect me to remember numbers @@

thank god I got it right :D

I shall create one for me too lol 5679 taken

A period of time in May;

went yam cha with mun yee, goh cicak and brandon in Old town Kopitiam, Taipan.

had fun with them, just eating ice-cream and chit chatting, gossiping while brandon can actually drink coffee when it's 30 minutes to 12 midnight -,-

I swear, his coffee is super duper thick and black that he suffered from insomnia that night. epic

as he lifted up the cup, he discovered the secret recipe for that epic coffee

don't know what is that (pic above)

As days goes by, work is getting boring and boring each day that I can literally rott.

This is an interesting book . heheheheheheh....I read some of it during work . LOL!!!!

I bought this cause I fa hao, don't know what to drink and the label is so cute. =D

till then,

it sucks to be sick

My life is full of hatred

There are times when you will start saying ' I dont care anymore. fml'

Well but for me, I'm just so sick and tired of all this shit.

• I cannot dont care anymore
• I must do something

2011 is a bitch.

I suddenly have alot of pimples that have yet to recover (what the shit)

I suddenly have more stretch marks than ever (what the hell.. havent even give birth already have it **************)

I suddenly gained lots of weight ...(2-3kg.I BLAME NATIONAL SERVICE AKA KTM)

I suddenly have major face problem (dang.. like this I can never have a boyfriend )

I suddenly stop reading my pathetic love story novels (don't know throw where already)

I suddenly have scalp problem

I suddenly acknowledge that there's such thing as Acid Men . (ok...kinda irrelevant)

I suddenly want to just sit down and cry (ok, that doesn't fix my face )

why 2011 is so horrible?

TELL MY WHY!

I understand that the ministry of education is trying to reduce bullies cases.

Let me asked you this. what the whole &*^&%^$@#&* point? Bullying has taken place for the past decades,it's like a culture now. especially in SJK(C) SUNGAI WAY!

Suspending them is the right thing to do? NVM. at least better than nothing rite?

I thought no one cares about bullying cases. I just wonder, did you know I cried every single day after school? Did it ever cross your mind that......I hated school....not because of school but you,the bully.**** your life..I don't even know whether you're still alive. And for all the audience...**** you all also... for not doing anything to help me. From that day onwards, I swore that If I find you, i'll whack the shit out off you .

All the misery stopped when i shifted school. Apparently, there are better humans in TTCL =)

ps/ did you know why i didn't tell you all that I was leaving? honestly, I was hyped to leave you .

FML big time

And now, I miss my face . why the hell did my face become so plum

*ignore the yoko yoko*
'The ice lemon tea really got problem' Qouted.

FACE. I NEED YOU BACK . I want you in my life =( I need you

This may not lasts but this is NOW ;)

Hey there =]

Life has been less fun lately. partly is because I took a part time job that almost killed me. I'm just dead tired , thats all. Serving customer can be a nuisance,especially when there are some greedy spenders and not to forget the expert bargainers . One of the reasons why I decided to take this job is partially because I wanna play a little bit of ' pretend entrepreneur ' .I wont say my job sucks ,but I wont say it rocks either :O ... Last week sales really killed me..Fortunately,this week sales has the ability to cover my last week's negative. The digit can make you vomit blood,I'm serious.

My motto : As long as you're happy, I'm happy

Anyway. Last week is kinda fun though :D

In a moment, I get to play a really fun and expensive remote controlled toy car(while working haha) . Plus, my stall has relocated infront of KFC. my booth is literally beneath the KFC signboard.. which has increase my revenue. thank god.

I have a interesting photo to share :D

Taaaada. I showed this picture to my booth neighbors . And they were all shocked that the person in that picture was actually meeeeee xDDDDDD!!!!!!! I can enter guess guess guess already.

ps// I still miss my hair ;O

oh and btw,

I passed my undang already!!! Now have to go get my L !!!!

I let you go with a smile =')

I'm better off without you ;

xoxo

The sky is dark without you

Ello!!!

Anyhow, I find it quite accurate though.
Let me highlight . 'Never buy fakes as present' Lmao..

My new hairstyle . I wanted to hide my extremely chubby face with my hair but obviously failed.

I kinda miss my previous hair =(

where'd go , i miss you so

I'm torn D:

Ohno.. I don't have the mood to blog anymore. u know what. this is the reason why I threw my journalism dream . And now. This is shit.

People are like asking me what I'm going to study . I then told them what I want lor. And 90% is giving me the negative look. what la. I can't do much. It's either accountings or business marketing. Since I hate accounting till I can scold bad word that type, I decided not to take that lor. Do I wanna be an accountant? No. But accountant can really earn $$? Are you trying to test me or something? to choose money or happiness? Perfect. Business got so low class meh? Am I not aggressive enough to be studying international marketing?Can I master a whole new language by the time I work? Am I capable to study that whole lot of shits? I don't want more , just needed much.But most importantly, will I be happy atlas? I just wanna be ....happy.

anyway, went to sjk(c) yuk chai fr bro's ceremony things. IT was so boring






Random;


Why are the sardines The silliest fish in the sea?

Because they climb into tins,close the lid and leave the key outside.

I know it's abit lame.

I have some clothes wanna sell off. Most of them are short dresses . that I reserved them for special occasions that will never happen . ironic huh...

(coming soon)

eclipse of my life

*pays the puppy face cashier* ...... and there goes my happiness. Like everyone says: money is evil. You know what I feel right now. 'Life is like a box of chocolates, you'll never know what you will get =)' . I destest it =.=... Me ,going to National Service has totally change my perspective towards life. Of course, now I tend to laugh more. But seriously ,what's the point. what is the whole use of all this crap. laughing doesn't change your life..It's useless. I began to feel hopeless. I'm even begining to feel like I'm this saddist who is also a lonist .wow. It all came in a pakage , I think. What for laughing so much when you know that your life is in jeopardy . what for receiving so much praises when you know that you could have done better in your past life. To some people, laughing may be a good cure for emotional outburst , but do you know that somehow,somewhat in sometime that sooner or later the smile will go off. and soon. you will return back to darkness. a total darkness that will keep your brain stiff .no movement at all. nothing.nada. I'm literally running out of time. In just a glimpse. I then realize that I'm standing in a middle of 2 different path . ohgod. the so-called-road-not-taken. I guess poetry can be so oh-so-meaningful afterall. I don't wan to be that oldman, okay..now what's the different between oldman and old lady . It's pathetic. Sometimes I just wonder how to describe my present situation. Is it so complicated that nobody can come up with a solution to my predicament? Why? WHY? I began to seek god in desperation. till now, no answer. Everyone is asking me to breathe,take my time,just think,make it clear,clear my mind. guess what,None of these above is helping . However, I am uncertain of my situation. Everyone seem calm. WHY??? A Big Big WHY well, you are now witnessing the luck of a middle child . So I have two option. That's the big question . Should I sell of my soul to dearest beloved form6 aka stpm ? I will have goosebumps everytime when I say form6 But then , the name form6 is very grand. People will glance at you and start to look at you differently. I even fear that one that I'll have nightmare about it. It's giving me the creeps >.<" Dearest friend told me that stpm is a 50%50% success. It's like those game. neh The 50% scroll in MapleStory (if you know what I mean) .Once fail, you will have basically nothing. wow. And you will end up whining about how and what you would have done in those past 2 years etc. And when you know that your friends are half-way through their diploma programmes or picking up a degree .that's pure peer pressure. I can go loco just by hearing the sound of that . How terrifying it could be ;O And it it called as 'The Challenge of 2 years' . I just wanna like.. save abit of my father's money . Partly because he deserve a holiday getaway . and partly because I feel disgusted of myself for using so much of his money -.- So yeah. And trust me, I have been doing lots of research lately that I can even declare myself as a google pro (or not! xD) Foundation + Bachelor Business studies :

• segi 49k++ (entitiled 3.5k rebate)


• inti 67k++


• sunway 80k++ (2k entrance scholarship)


• Taylor 93k++


• Monash 119k++ (MUFY 2k entrance scholarship,OKAYYYY)

And I am still clueless on why taylor's journalism is so cheap @____@ Something is so wrong Others like TarC or Utar is just too far . So I can kiss goodbye to those two. Those 2k is just because of my so called proudest 7A's. (what? proudest? I could have 8 for god's sake. 8888888 ..8 is a lucky number =_=) Seriously. MORAL??? My moral get A most of the time T.T This is really saddening because apparently 7 and 8 makes SO MUCH DIFFERENCE that I can just scream each time I'm reminded to it . ISHH So Close Yet So Far Anyway, It's still my proudest . I mean, hey, I was holding a tissue paper and constantly blowing my nose (I sensed pity from the teachers who was monitoring us) while sitting for that deadly exam.And I still manage to juggle all up. That was pretty awesome. Not to mention, thank god for my A and at least a B3 (I know, wth rite) in my English language bacause that was really the worst essay I had even written for the past 2 years , I am not joking.I don't even know what on earth I was writing. And there wasn't any satisfaction at all,instead I was traumatized. I dont know , it's just that each time when I finish my essay ,there's just this satisfactory that runs through my somewhat soul ..This might sound exaggerating ,I know. So now, I'm still on this chair .waiting for an answer from god. Please give me a sign or something